Conference Fun, Part II: The Awards Ceremony, In Which I Win and Fail

The day after the car ride made in heaven, we went in for breakfast in a hotel conference room filled to capacity. I am not shy and quickly found myself a table of peer-looking people to accost. We exchanged the typical greetings. Names, cities. Genres, pitches, how we felt about Twilight. (Not kidding. Twilight came up four times over the two days of the regular conference. Fifty Shades of Grey came up thrice. Shockingly, Chaucer came up zero times.)

We quickly established the undying bonds of literary comradery (aka- exchanged Twitter handles). They’re all super cool and it was great to meet them and hang out with them throughout that day and the next. We had meals together, went over notes from sessions and workshops and critiques, and had a generally good time. And there was snark. Oh, the snark.

Saturday was also the day I went over my critique with Lisa Cron, which was great. Fifteen minutes was not enough time, but she did help me clean up a few points of confusion and let me know that my query was utter garbage. (She’s right. It’s utter garbage.) Since I was the first critique after lunch, she, being the phenomenally nice lady that she is, let me start a few minutes early and pick her brains a bit more. We determined that I talk too much about setting and not enough about emotion. So… something to work on.

That evening was the awards ceremony. I knew I was being awarded the Doris J. Dearborn scholarship by her son, Barry Dearborn, so I got all dolled up and Barry put on a tie. We made a fetching pair, I’m sure. I said a few words that mostly amounted to gushing gratitude (I’m so bad at public speaking. It’s terrible. Can’t I just write a short story about how the event made me feel and call it good?) and happily sat back down with my pals. The scholarship paid for my attendance at the conference, my critique, my Friday workshop, and a year’s membership in the Alaska Writers Guild.

But then my name got called again! Each of the three critiquers was told to select up to three of the best manuscripts from their pool to be awarded Most Promising Manuscript. Lisa Cron selected mine and apparently felt so strongly about it that she refused to pick another two. So I got each of the two awards that I possibly could have qualified for, and was the only person of the evening to get two awards. There were a total of eleven awards handed out that evening. I was so giddy I felt light headed the rest of the evening.

One would think this would grant me mythic confidence. One would think this would make me feel perfectly justified in approaching any ol’ agent I wanted to. One would be wrong.

After the award ceremony was over, I took pictures with Barry Dearborn and with Gretchen Wehmhoff, the Guild president, and started eying Deborah Warren, who happens to be the agent of my kids’ favorite books. If I had any right to approach an agent, I figured now was the time. I was a double award winner, for crying out loud! The double award winner! So I inched closer. But she was talking to other people, so I puttered around the skeletal remains of the buffet. But she was still talking. So I went and talked query letters with the Conference’s chairperson, Brooke Hartman, who is awesome. But Ms. Warren was still talking to people who were not me.

I gave up and went outside with Mary. But as we were loading into the car, she kicked me back out and told me to go talk to the agent. So I slunk back inside. Folks were walking up to shake my hand, to congratulate me, to ask about what I was working on. But not Ms. Warren. She was still talking. So I edged closer, standing almost close enough to reach out and touch her lime green jacket, thereby absorbing some of her magical literary powers.

But I didn’t. Instead, I skittered back outside, where Mary was sitting in the car, casting me a rather stern look. Cheeks burning, I crept back inside.

I glanced at Ms. Warren again, still talking and having a great time, absolutely oblivious to my plight (or at least too polite to stare). I poked my head into the empty conference room, pretending I was looking for something, and then went back out into the hall where the few stragglers were still talking.

By this point, I felt like a total creep. I mean, seriously. I was being a stalker. I opened the door, took one step, saw Mary, and retreated back inside. Oh, golly, I was being flanked! There was nowhere to go! Ms Warren was still chatting, her group breaking up and heading for the elevators, but the conversation never stopped. They never paused. And I never interrupted. And so I slumped in defeat back to Mary’s car in the half-empty parking lot and decided I would pester Ms Warren tomorrow.

But we all know, my darlings, that tomorrow never comes. I found out the next morning that she wasn’t attending the second day, that my ship had sailed, and that she had very little, if any, idea who I was. Sigh! Alas…

But… I’m probably going to query her anyway. So, we’ll see?


2 thoughts on “Conference Fun, Part II: The Awards Ceremony, In Which I Win and Fail

  1. Dear Jill:

    Sorry I missed you at the conference. But you know, tomorrow is just a day away … Don’t kill him — your sweet husband sent me this link. CONGRATULATIONS on your awards and I’d be delighted to consider your Work. I love Alaska! Best; Deborah

  2. Thank you so much! Agents still have demigod status in my brain and it’s hard not to be intimidated. Thanks for being a nice mortal after all. (PS- I sent a query on the 20th. Thank you for the invitation to do so!)

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